Michael Landon with Squid

i guess i'm sort of in a rut. i cannot stop thinking about people and being with somebody, and going on dates, and what are my chances, or do i even have a chance? this is something i will not readily admit to, and something that i pretend not to care about, but recently, i've been thinking about it constantly. unfortunately, i am also quite bad at the 'dating' thing in general, for 4 main reasons:

1.) i am too shy.

2.) i am afraid to take chances.

3.) i feel that i cannot express myself when i need to.

4.) i am unable to go beyond a freindship for fear of screwing it up/ being awkward.

on average, i don't care, in fact, i don't even think about it, but lately it's really got my goat.

in other news, the steelers won the superbowl. normally i don't care, but last night it caused rioting in the streets of Pittsburgh, which is awesome! i wish i was down there, just so i could help flip a car or something.

also, i want to go back to Point Pleasant, WV. we travelled there last summer to find the Mothman. we investigated old, fenced-in cement factories, monster-filled woodlands, creepy bogs, abandoned streets, sinister Mothman merchandise desks, and a diner that was pure evil, despite it's delicious grilled cheese sandwiches and cheese steaks.

i want to go back.