R.I.P, Pap.

my pap died on monday.

he was a really cool guy, and i am going to miss him. he liked to play cards, watch racing, cuss, and hang out with us. he was a tough guy, like a cowboy...it was great to try and get him to be silly. he'd always grumble 'ah, christ!' when we played tricks on him. he always asked me if i had to keep the all girls away from me by hitting them with a stick, and i never knew how to respond...

today was the viewing, which was a little rough. but tomorrow is the funeral and i suck at funerals. i feel weird crying in front of people. i'm okay, though...

my dad is taking it very hard, though, which is strange to me. i mean, i certainly understand, because it was his father, but i have never seen my dad cry in my entire life.

i miss pap